Tuesday, June 3, 2008

JUDGMENTAL?

What are with those judgmental people?

MN and I went for my fren's wedding last Saturday. Tell ya, it was a HUGE thing to bring him meeting all my frens. Before that glowing Saturday, people knew him as 'awak'. Comel kan? It went like 'tak keluar dating ngan awk ke this week? or the common sentence of my day; 'awak sihat?' That awak-sihat did not mean for me ok, it was for MN. Like people around me were too curious to know about him.

Frankly, I did not mean to hide anything from my closed frens. If I were to mengikut kata hati, I would love to tell the whole world about him. I kind of proud to be with him, because I was totally wrong about my first impression on him. I never thought he could accept me for me being me. Ok, am I being judgmental here? Nope I guess :P I'm judging myself. So that is acceptable.

As expected, I was thrown with so many questions this morning. Mainly about MN. Those people were being judgmental. They were kind of tak percaya; I am with MN now. Ok to crystal things out, we are from 2 different worlds I would say.

  • Me being the hu-ha-hanky-panky-clumsy person, and him being shy-shy-cat person.

  • Me being the haluan agak ke-kiri sket, and him being ke haluan kanan sedikit. I am so inferior on this. I am no good tetapi MN accepts me the way i am. Cerita part ini sangat menyentuh hati. Tetapi akan ditulis di lain kali.

  • Me being the gedix-sometimes vain (always actually :p) and him, being so relax.

  • Me being the kelam kabut,cepat panic and very difficult to make decisions, and him being so calm, cool and a quick decision maker. Except while doing his work, he is so not tenang k.Ehe.

  • Me being so direct dan melepaskan apa sahaja terlintas di hati, and him being so secretive dan memendam rasa. ( But I am so slow when it becomes to relationship. Macam awal-awal of our perkenalan..ecece. I was slow, and worse thing he was even slower ;p I wonder where we got the courage to berterus-terang dulu. But itu dulu. Sekarang tidak lagi. Biasalah, masa nak break the ice, memang begitu kan :) )

  • Me being semakin berisi, tembam, chubby dan gemuks, and him being so kurus. This is one of the important reasons I would want to re-continue my healthy diet. Hoho.


But mind ya, we also share lots of common interests. Spare that for later. I'm always criticized by AA because I claim myself as me- a plain Jane. Who is soo not me. But I do think I'm a plain Jane. It's just that I do not go out without gloss and eyeliner, so I could not be a plain Jane lah iya? Hah :p

And oh, another reason I did not being direct about MN to my closed frens is because he does not like to mengecoh di sekalian alam about our personal things. To him, it would be special if it is only between me and him. So we agreed not to be kepochi, but we will confess on our status once people ask. But to saja-saja bercerita about us, that is so not going to happen.

Jadi, mengapakah manusia-manusia itu being so judgmental? Bermacam-macam andaian dibuat hanya sebab I did not want to tell them the whole story? Seperti paparazzi mereka itu. I guess you guys know what the meaning of respect, am I right? I don't mind if people terserempak with us or whanots, semestinya I would introduce. Tapi apekah anda expect me to buat makan-makan just to introduce him. Itu namanya kenduri kahwin iya. Sekian terima kasih.
'But I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I'

Yang penting, I am happy with my life now. Even though I know the fact that we have a very long journey, we would try our best to make the journey meaningful, fun, exciting and showers us with happiness. I hope this will work, and never want pisang to berbuah dua kali. I promise myself, I see this as for real and really hope it is for real. I know it is hard, especially when you are far apart, but well... we are what we want it to be.

We are no one to judge people. Be it the inner quality or outer appearance. We should respect others for what they think is the best for them.

Signing off for now.

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